swollen and small is where you'll find me now

So yeah, I hate it when i get all whiney. I gotta stop that. I'm feeling better now. NMH is probably my favorite band. I can listen to In An Aeroplane Over the Sea forever and ever. I was being so dumb last week. I need a change. A physical change. I think i really need to cut my hair. I'll be very sad though. But it'll be symbolic of a new era. Lol, i'm really silly. I also need to get my act together. So much work to do. Research paper. Tehilaaaaa i need to talk to you about it. Maybe i'll give you a call. Bah i wanted to have a sleepover last night since my first class for today was cancelled cuz of the jewz<3. So i wanted michelle but she couldnt come so i invited frankie and brett bc i know frankie doesn't have class and brett's first class is like at 3 so i thought it was a nice idea and we could cook pancakes in the morning and have coffee and yeah. But brett was like you should just come home. And i got really angry. Because wtf, i was justttt! home and i'm going to be home this weekend also. Idk, i'm not going to invite them over anymore though. Fuck that. And after this weekend i'm not going to come home for a while. Or at least not come home unless i have to for a concert or something. I need to give them a chance to miss me. But there is the possibility that they just won't miss me. That would be depressing. I guess we'll just have to see. I miss everyone. I know there are people out there who are similar to my friends and me and we'd click but I can't seem to find them and if i do find them I don't know how to befriend them. I need to get more involved. Join a club or something. I'm such a waste. :(