sigh of relief?

I don't know what's been going on lately. This constantly having something to do and never finishing everything is leaving me hollow. It is exhausting and never satisfying. I lost my internet connection this week because i'm a fool and downloaded too much outside of the rutgers network. Oh well, such is life. Right now, I sit at my little cubicle of a desk at work and pretend that i'm doing what i'm supposed to be. What a faker i am. This is a much more constructive use of my time in my opinion though. I need to fucking take a moment out of this week and just sit and write. I guess a lot's been going on. Just haven't had time to process it all. Friday i went on a pretty crazy trip. I was so looking foreward to it and excited about it being a beautiful day but then Michelle was crying and I was just doing a lot of observing because I felt like i had nothing to say that really held any real meaning. And it just got increasingly sadder how we can never understand each other. Yes, we say we understand but there's no possible way to be sure all of our life is lived subjectively. And just lonliness in general. I cried because i have these wonderful people in my life and there are so many people out there who have no one. No family, no friends, nothing. It was all very draining. And then i didn't even get to see the fireworks i was so looking foreward to. But i saw eric kopp, that was nice. I really wanna visit ithaca so bad. I feel like i'd love it. Ugh still so much work to do. End not in sight. Oh well. And i completely got ahead of myself last post. I'm embarrassed i even wrote about it. And now i see that all these people have blogs?? That's cool though. I'm glad i think it's a great way to stay in each other's lives.

So frankie officially got in to Rowan. Woooo frankie, i knew he would. I told him congrats last night and he was like i miss everyone already. :( It'll be okay though. I'm looking foreward to winter break. Fast forewarddd. Time's a scary thing.